Church was a release. It gave me the structure—if you do this and this, then you will be okay. There are formal dos and don’ts that you get from the pulpit, and then there are informal ones you get from your friends. You know which stores to buy your clothes in and which clothes to buy. You know which kinds of nightgowns to wear. You know which kinds of sexual activities with your husband are all right, which ones are not allowed. You all cook the same things. You raise your children in the same way. The point being that if you do those things, you’re going to be all right. Many survivors feel an overwhelming need to achieve to make up for the badness that they feel is hidden inside. Excelling at work is valued in the high-achieving American culture, but when taken to excess, it can be a way to avoid an inner life or the possibility of intimacy with the people around you: If the abuse took place outside your family and you weren’t adequately heard or responded to, you got the message that your pain wasn’t important, that you couldn’t rely on your family to listen to your feelings or protect you. In her recent book Trauma and Recovery, Herman notes the contribution of social pressure in the eliciting of previously unconscious material: Becoming the Parent You Want to Be is sensitive to the needs of modern parents and offers practical advice for real problems. The real world stories and examples are a treasure-trove for parents looking for help. I'm going to recommend it to my colleagues and patients."

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Of course, imagination can be the source of a rich creative life. One teenager needed to escape so badly, she believed Star Trek was real. When the series was taken off the air, she began to hear the voices of the characters in her head and started writing her own episodes. Today she is a successful science-fiction writer. ADDICTIONS, COMPULSIONS, AND SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR I have found it invaluable on my journey, and would wholeheartedly recommend it for survivors as an essential way to be kind to yourselves, and to therapists as to how to help, due to its thorough and complete insight and practical and emotional guidance. a b c d e f g h i j k Aronson E; Tavris C (2007). Mistakes were made (but not by me): why we justify foolish beliefs, bad decisions, and hurtful acts. San Diego: Harcourt. pp. 121, 263n40. ISBN 978-0-15-101098-1. {{ cite book}}: CS1 maint: multiple names: authors list ( link)

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Not all survivors are affected in the same way. You may do well in one area of your life but not in another. You may be competent at work and in parenting but have trouble with intimacy. Some women have a constant nagging feeling that something is wrong. For others, the damage is so pervasive that it feels as if nothing was spared: As a child or an adolescent, you might have made attempts to run away from a home in which you were being abused. Or you might have escaped through sleep, books, or video games. Many adult survivors still read obsessively. One woman said, I’d buy a junk novel and read it till I fell asleep, usually for a good thirty-six hours at a stretch. Others spend most of their lives in front of the TV or a computer screen. One of the ways survivors cope with realities they cannot face, and the terrible shame they feel, is to cover over their real feelings with an acceptable façade. On the surface, there is a little girl having a good childhood, but underneath there’s a child who’s prone to nightmares and sees terrifying people hiding in the corner of the room.

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This capacity to forget explains why many adult survivors are unaware of the fact that they were abused or remember only parts of their experience. (For an explanation of this phenomenon, see " Remembering," p. 70.) The way the abuse was handled when you were a child has a lot to do with its subsequent impact. If a child’s disclosure is met with compassion and effective intervention, the healing begins immediately. But if no one noticed or responded to your pain, you were left feeling abandoned and alone. If you were blamed, were not believed, or suffered further trauma, the damage was compounded. And the ways you coped with the abuse might have created further problems. a b c d e f g Freyd, P (2009). "False Memory Syndrome Foundation Newsletter" (PDF). 18 (1). False Memory Syndrome Foundation . Retrieved 2009-04-21. {{ cite journal}}: Cite journal requires |journal= ( help) I’ll tell people things about myself that seem too personal to share, but I don’t really trust them or get close to them. They don’t know what I feel inside. I hardly ever share that. Weaving together personal experience with professional knowledge, the authors provide clear explanations, practical suggestions, and support throughout the healing process. Readers will feel recognized and encouraged by hundreds of moving first-person stories drawn from interviews and the authors' extensive work with survivors, both nationally and internationally.

For anyone that is interested in this book for the purpose of supporting a survivor, the authors have written a book just for you: Allies in Healing: When the Person You Love Was Sexually Abused as a Child. There are many other books for supporters, as well, and taking the time to do the research will do as much for you and the survivor as reading the material.

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I have total recall of the most intimate details of different rooms I’ve been in. I can’t remember who I was talking to or what we were talking about, but I sure can tell you exactly what the window looked like! The long-term effects of child sexual abuse can be so pervasive that it’s sometimes hard to pinpoint exactly how the abuse affected you. It can permeate everything: your sense of self, intimate relationships, sexuality, parenting, work, even your sanity. As one survivor explained:a b c Crews, FC; Bass E; Davis L (1995). "Thanks for the Memories". The New York Review of Books. 42 (3) . Retrieved 2009-02-19. Through simple, direct language, touching human stories, and clear messages, the authors reveal sensitivity, understanding and in-depth knowledge of both children's and parents' development. They know what is necessary for children and parents to grow and flourish. It will become a classic among books for parents." Sometimes it’s difficult for survivors with DID to accept and appreciate all their inner selves. Some alternate personalities may appear hostile, weak, or in some other way be disturbing to you. You may wish you could get rid of them, but it’s essential to remember that all of them—no matter how problematic they may seem to you now—played an important part in your survival. Every alternate personality developed to fill a need, and given the limitations of the situation, they fulfilled those roles in the best way they could. Everything you’ve done, even if it doesn’t look like it makes sense now, has its own intrinsic logic, which is sane and rational. Children learn about the world through their bodies. If they are protected and nurtured, they feel at home in their bodies. Living in their bodies is a source of pleasure, accomplishment, and satisfaction.