I think I’ve been depressed most of my life, so finding my way here all these years later I guess was sort of inevitable. I take no comfort from finding others here as well – and so many. testosterone production: my doctor saw my performance at the gym decline to just sitting; trying to motivate myself to move.. he told me to come into his office before hours the next day.. I did.. my testosterone was down from 900 to 140.. and my thyroid? it also was underperforming.. both were easily remedied (but the real reason testosterone collapsed? see next part) Sherry.. you say you don’t understand why others are keeping you alive against their will? No one – besides yourself – can keep you alive against your will.

I hurt for you while reading your comment. Thank you for sharing so much here. It must have taken a lot of time and tears to write out your story like that. I cant get 😫 relief. My boyfriend is not empathic at all.he just tells me he wants me to leave.this started last July and I cant walk without a lot of pain.im very tired and want to go to sleep. I wish I could just not wake up I’ve been at the same job for over 35 years and I can’t talk to my family or friends about how I feel. They just ignore me and walk away or think it’s a joke when I say I would like to be dead. (Maybe not those exact words). I guess I’m looking for words of encouragement to get through the day, but get none. I feel like the biggest failure. I feel like I’m always making the wrong decisions. My wife tells me I have to make more money to take care of her father. I believe it’s the responsibility of her brothers and sisters, but she makes me feel bad about it and doesn’t seem to care about what I think. I’ve been called stupid and uncaring. I try to hide my emotions because I know no one cares about how I feel and if I was gone tomorrow a couple of people would cry for a few days then forget about me. So why am I still here. Please Lord take me home. If you blame yourself for your suicide attempt, this post might be helpful: Do You Blame Yourself for Thinking of Suicide? It’s about suicidal thoughts but the messages apply to suicide attempts as well: You’re not to blame. Mental illness, circumstances, stress, trauma or other factors are to blame. Negative events and conditions are things that happened to you, not that you chose. And even if you did choose something that contributed to your attempting suicide, you had your reasons. Generally speaking, we’re all doing the best we can with the information we have available to us in the moment.None of you have any valid reason to want to die, get a damn life and stop being such drama queens. Sherry: the message here is when a door slams shut, a window opens somewhere. If you don’t give up, you’ll most likely find it or it will find you. I HATE her. She has an everything life, while I struggle on so many levels every single day. But I don’t show any of that to her anymore and she certainly doesn’t know how I feel about her. Part of my considering suicide is that at least I wouldn’t be carrying the weight of this around all the time No one gives us instructions on how to live, we figure it out on our own which is so hard. I really feel for you and felt I needed to say you aren’t alone in feeling that way. I’m trying to send some positive energy your way and hope that things begin to look brighter for you and all of us. Thank You for the exception, and Thank You for you’re reply. Ive been thinking about what you said about caring ….You are right there is still people out there that do care, that want to see the best for others, you said you care, I believe you (Thank You) Our creator God made me to live….I care about me…(Tears) And i do have things to share too. I will find work ,I will meet good people that encourage, share. I will do all that i can to help me again. People can be unfair, illogical, remember the bad forget the good I forgive them anyway, and be with those who are friendly. I don’t want to give up its not fair to me or anyone else…. I am the nice one!! … with God, a job, and some good friends, I will be all right. Thanks for You’re support, You’ve been Great,

My parents shouldn’t have had kids either. Ever single day feels like f’ing internal warfare. NOTHING I do helps or stops the pain. I do EVERY coping skill, journal, exercise, eat healthy, forced socialization, meditate. But every damn day I am in constant battle with myself.Ketamine, psilocybin, ECT, and unexpected meds: doxycycline, NAC (yeah, mucomist), namenda, wellbutrin+Dextromethorphan.

I haven’t had a friend since I was 6, am 43 now, I don’t have a doctor because I have no reason for one, and I have no colleagues since I work from home. Alone. Avila Disappointment’, nice tag! I like its sarcastic understatement, seriously. Your analogy of a fire – the difference is, the fire doesn’t burn everything up unless you decide to let it. And I’m sure your good memories aren’t all fake, why would you think that? It’s just, sadly, people can’t always live up to their promises or what they profess, but it doesn’t mean they’re not sincere at the time. Hi Hayden, I want you to know that you matter so much to me and to those who have never met you. In your short life you do not deserve to feel like you have to survive or take care of your siblings. You should not have to take care of things that your parents or caregivers are supposed to be taking care of themselves. You should be loved and cared for too. This article definitely resonates with a lot of people! It’s sad that so many can relate. And yet, as you note, it can be a comfort for people to not be alone and to feel understood by others.I’m certain you aren’t useless and I don’t think your parents would think you are useless either. I’m probably not the best person to be trying to help you, I think little of myself but I see potential and worth in other people! Most doctors are good at treating acute illnesses, but bad at preventing chronic disease. The 15 leading causes of death claim the lives of 1.6 million Americans every year, but this needn’t be the case. Dr. Greger methodically lays out the why’s and how’s of disease and, with his trademark humor, presents the indisputable, peer-reviewed, scientific evidence to support the best foods to eat (and to avoid) and which lifestyle changes to make to live longer and more healthfully. I’ve had depression for many years and mostly do well. The problem is my partner. I am in a gay relationship and my husband, while most of the time is great, turns into a monster when he gets angry. He can’t seem to stop himself long enough to calm down. It turns into days of him making me feel bad, threatens to leave, blames it all on me. Once he’s through, he cry’s and tells me how much he loves me and doesn’t want to leave. I know this is not healthy for him or me. But, we do love each other. I can’t imagine not being with him, but at this point can’t imagine how we can continue to do this. We have been you for 28 years. Anyway let’s get it today July 13, 2023 I have now been so depressed the worst I’ve ever been in my entire life where I can’t even get out of bed I’ve always been able to pull myself up I don’t even wanna go outside the only thing I do do is work, I have always been a worker people always said that I was a workaholic I’ve always worked in the bars caring 2 to 3 jobs at a time especially when I had my daughter I was a single mom and I wanted to give her everything we’re poor you know but I was financially stable with my jobs and able to give my daughter a nice little life growing up now she’s 19 I had my depression from her for so long and now she seen the worst of it and she doesn’t understand it she knows how my mom was cause she was around but this time is different I wanna give up it’s too hard life is too expensive I only have one job now because I lost my other job same people that I work for they had two bars and the one I made the money yet I’ve always been known as like the best bartender the fastest everyone says so but I’ve never been good at accepting compliments but we’ve been told I’m so beautiful and even now at my age I don’t see it but what I do see I don’t like

I’m really sorry you’re in this situation. You’re incredibly strong for keeping up despite everything you faced, which already is too much in your comment. I have been told countless times that I have nothing to be depressed about. How great of a life I am currently living. How I doing so great in life. If that is so true why does this pain and emptiness keep overflowing and encompassing me throughout everything I do??? When I ask for help, they ask me how they can help. If I knew that answer I would have saved myself long ago. I do not know how to fix this feeling that grows inside me. I do not know how to rid myself of these constant vile thoughts. These thoughts that never cease. I just want everyone not to be sad when I die. Is that too much to ask for? Can you please just let me go? I am not worth it. I never have been. If you only knew my thoughts you would be disgusted. You would be angry. You would be sad. You would be frustrated. But I do not want that to happen. I cannot let you feel that way. I cannot let you experience any of the pain that I am feeling on a daily basis. So for now I will keep fighting this relentless battle. Living, but never truly being alive. I have these issues and I have been trying my whole life to get help but I have no one and no money because I have been struggling just to make it and it’s too much I am drowning begging anyone to help and no one cares so I think it would be better to just end it all. I never should have been born in the first place. The only thing that’s been keeping me here is my kids but I’m no good for them like this. I can’t do this anymore. The data is deadly! Almost too scary to put into words. But it’s time to face the fat ugly truth: Suriname like so many of its Caribbean neighbors has joined the fat parade. According to a local newspaper, 30% of the male population between the ages of 15 and 50 are well on their way to eating themselves to death. A recently published WHO/PAHO survey which looks at the risk factors associated with chronic diseases showed that Suriname is facing an obesity epidemic. According to the survey, obesity in Suriname has doubled in the past 35 years. A quarter of the population has high cholesterol and approximately 20 percent suffers from high blood pressure while approximately 15 percent of the population suffers from diabetes. The survey also concluded that the Surinamese population exercises too little and in particular, more than half of Surinamese women fail to do any form of physical exercise. Even scarier is that cardiovascular diseases, diabetes and cancers, which can be directly linked to obesity and poor lifestyle habits are the cause of 60% of the deaths in Suriname. The Ministry of Health of Suriname estimates that the hospitalization costs for cardiovascular patients is approximately USD1 Million per year while dialysis costs are estimated at USD2 Million per year. That’s how I felt when I woke up on the floor of a storage room again(homeless) this morning. I’m tired of living. Just too much suffering. Sorry that you feel the same.

That’s where “passive” comes in. People with passive suicidal thoughts don’t want to do anything to make themselves die. They wish it would just happen. The windows that open for most people don’t lead to blessings, but often to deeper loss and pain. Many of us have been searching our entire lives for that window of blessings, and we never find it and it certainly never finds us. I am 48 and deaf. I lived alone and no one to talk to. Harsh life, no family no fiancée no children.