I went to my daughters graduation in November my Mum would have been so proud as she had every graduation photo of all her grandchildren, I like to think she would have been looking on. She was killed in a car accident aged 69 three months before Christmas 2016, so yes, here one minute and then gone. I lost my 22 year old son last May and the first Christmas without him didn’t even feel like Christmas for me and my 13 year old daughter but this year feels a bit better for us even though we miss him desperately we focus on our memories now and every time we just end up howling with laughter remembering how much joy he brought to our lives every day when he was here. I was fresh out of my first year at University and living 150 miles away from my family with a bunch of people I had only known since the previous September.

Etsy’s 100% renewable electricity commitment includes the electricity used by the data centres that host Etsy. I would say it does get easier with time - and the memories become a comfort rather than feeling overwhelmingly sad. I miss you dearly, and I try to remind myself that you live on in a thousand Christmas memories and the magic of the season. I guess day to day I have been coping a bit better in the last few months, keeping busy with the kids.Any kind of disruption to family gatherings, even a new home or change in menu, can be met with scepticism. It’s never easy remembering the night he died, or even talking about it, but doing so has become part of my healing process. Without these technologies, things like personalised recommendations, your account preferences, or localisation may not work correctly.

I also swing between extreme anger and heartbreak, I am sorry I have no words of wisdom but I get how you feel I completely do ,your not alone. I just find it horrible watching them enjoying time with my children when my own parents and sister have passed away. The 103 third parties who use cookies on this service do so for their purposes of displaying and measuring personalized ads, generating audience insights, and developing and improving products. I think it’s just worse that I feel like I’m having to explain myself to people, that I’m not actually in the mood for Christmas parties and I don’t want to be a big hostess for my dad and stepmum or the in laws on xmas day, none of them say anything to me anymore or ask how I am/ how I’m coping. You can change your choices at any time by visiting Cookie preferences, as described in the Cookie notice.

My doctor unhelfully I think said to me that people grieve until they get bored of grieving, I was thrown into my own crisis 3 months after she died as I received a cancer diagnosis and found that was all I could think about, rather than missing my mum so I don’t know if other than listening to you that I can help. No wonder you miss your mum she sounds great and it is sad she will miss out on seeing your dd grow up. I feel like my children will never miss my mum being there as they are only 3 and 1 so it will have never been the norm for her to be there.

She too was in hospital but passed away last November at home having only been back at home for a few days. We all lost our mums suddenly during the last y months and we have been such a comfort to each other.People don’t know whether they should send cards; in some cases, they can’t bring themselves to say “Happy Christmas”. Although this is my first Christmas without her I feel only my Dad and Sister are sensitive to that. I celebrate my Grandparents now by putting their tree ornaments on our little hallway tree - I used to decorate their tree with them every year (even as an adult!