She had been with her all along and treated me and our son so bad just to make her happy. Left me in my labor just to go be with her!!!! ( I don’t think I can ever get over this pain )

After weeks of passive-aggressive behavior, we had a nasty exchange that put everything on the table. Finally, she realized I wouldn’t change my mind and she said: it’s your body, your life. You know what you need to do. Over time, I was becoming myself again and she saw the comfort in that and the joy it brought me regardless of the obstacles. She eventually stopped asking questions. Natasha, seriously, you have such a gift as a writer and advice giver. THIS BLOG HAS SAVED ME. I cannot tell you how your words of wisdom have helped me maintain standards, dignity and boundaries. You can then, make peace with the present moment and in turn, reclaim your power. Crazy ONLY behind closed doors. They’ll convince you that by understanding what your dream partner really wants then you can finally become it! I kind of have to be around him every day but this has gotten so bad I’ve been considering leaving the world we built together.I wish that I could advise, but I have too much to say to type it all out not enough hands to type or hours in the day. I would also need more details. This is why I cannot give specific advice/answers in the comments. But even after having my breasts implants removed that spring, I was never fully convinced about living as a man regardless of the benefits I had experienced. I still had my makeup and wigs hidden away in boxes under my bed. And I was plotting every excuse to wear them. I’d be in my room at my mom’s house, secretly putting on makeup. At 33 years old, there I was hiding in my mom’s guest room reimagining myself like I was a child all over again. I kept getting these glimpses of my old self. The woman. But I would always get these nasty jolts of reality that reminded me that I was living my life as a man again. My mother’s perspective changed a lot from watching my journey unfold under her own roof. She saw my life, and all that I was doing with it. Up until then, she feared I would not be accepted by the world. She didn’t want me to be hated or ostracized.

Followed by a three-year relationship turned cancelled engagement with a man who turned out abusive… The LOVE MAP is where you get to bring it all together and create a beautiful map of your desires for love, intimacy, connection and partnership – and then make it a reality! In each iteration, The One is guided by the Oracle and then the Keymaker to a holding room of sorts where The One gains an audience with the Architect. The Architect explains the origin and history of The One to them as well as their purpose, after which he presents The One a choice: enter the door leading to the Source to reload the Matrix by reinserting the Prime Program, or return to the Matrix.These articles helped me at times when I’m down and my feelings for him get the most out of me. My ex cheated on me with his best friend and in the end, abused me, but I am learning to accept it as it is and that I have to let him go. During this dark time, I even learned to love myself and how to make myself happy by discovering who I really am and letting all my hard work do the talking itself. Since then I’ve been traveling, working long hours, going to the gym, and I made plans to move out to NYC and even study abroad in Paris soon. I would even go to parties and go out with my friends to have some fun. Also I did some daring things like getting tattoos and piercings, because afterwards I was happy with how brave I have become. I assume this is where I am “getting on the white horse” lol. I truly believe that, in my hiccups and trials and tribulations, there are lessons for others. There might be someone who sees my story and understands it and might be going through something similar. That’s why I am so open about my story. I know that there are others who might relate, but may never live to tell it. Sheleana Aiyana has created a clear bridge between personal healing and improving our relationships. Becoming the One is for you if you want to live more fully and experience love at a greater level of harmony. This is a spectacular guide to the inner world and relationships; it dispels myths, grounds you in transformative truth, and reconnects you to your power. Yung Pueblo, New York Times bestselling author of Inward