Bobby knew that Whitney loved him, but he also knew she wasn't in love with him and only married him to shrug off the gay rumours. My take away from this book was deep down whitney didn't feel worthy of better relationships and sobriety. It sounded INCREDIBLE and Whitney never sang it again until she put it on her last and final album, I look to you, in 2009. I need someone that I know loves me for me,” Houston once said of Crawford and as the star’s celebrity increased, Crawford became one of the very few people she could trust.

In some ways, I really wish that Eddie Murphy had acted better because I believe they would have been a solid match but colliding stars don’t create anything beautiful when you think about it spatially (so perhaps not). To break any silence is difficult – never mind one enforced over decades, at the risk of huge commercial damage to a brand as valuable as Houston’s. Crawford was there when Houston toured as support for Luther Vandross, sneaking out into the audience after the opening set to catch as much of the headliner as she could before being recognized by fans. Officially, they were just friends, but even privately they resisted acknowledging what was really going on. Robyn and Whitney were initially lovers but could not maintain that relationship due to how it would appear to Whitney’s fans as well as Whitney’s strict, conservative, religious family.There was nothing Crawford could do but plead with her to stop and report her drug use to her mother.

In 1988, when Crawford suggested to Cissy that the singer needed help for her drug addiction, she was given short shrift. Their romance took off just as Crawford was exiting Houston’s orbit, and Lisa told her she needed to get help.You know what we shared," said Houston, telling Crawford they had to end their physical relationship. Crawford smoked weed with Houston and was introduced to cocaine, and reflected that it wasn't a difficult decision to eventually quit using substance altogether-- though this wasn't the case for Houston, who spent years battling substance addiction. Three years after Houston’s death, her only daughter, Bobbi Kristina, died from a combination of drowning and drug intoxication at the age of 22; before she died, she spent months in a coma. For all Robyn’s concern about the leeches in Whitney’s life, her memoir portrays a similar lack of respect (and nuance) for Whitney in her later years.