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For now, on Beatopia, beabadoobee is embracing her history, her vast musical loves and yes, her natural hair, that outward sign that everything is getting better. “I can finally accept my past and appreciate all the opportunities I have, and keep both my feet on the ground and treat everything with love – and realise ‘It’s not that bad, Bea’,” she smiles in a way that seems genuinely content. “I’m finally learning how to appreciate everything in my life.” PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS IS NOT A FULL MAGAZINE ISSUE - THIS IS A MINI MAGAZINE THAT FOLDS OUT INTO A POSTER] Urban legend says that if you drop a frog into boiling water, it will instantly leap out - but if you place a frog in a pot filled with pleasantly tepid water and then gradually heat it, the frog will not sense danger and remain in the water, unable to detect the gradual increase in temperature until it's too late. Similarly, life can be equally as complicated, with it being human nature to seek solace in familiar connections and nostalgia (regardless of the personal cost to yourself). As Kristi herself realised in the writing of this latest album: "I need time to grow and to exist." So, choose yourself. And if you’ve been looking for a sign, this is it: your feelings are valid and everything happens as it's meant to (even when you feel like screaming into a void and you've been crying all weekend). Beatopia is ready and waiting for you. It can be a home for us all. See you soon. She already does. Young girls of Asian origin have told beabadoobee she’s inspired them to do exactly that. “I was itching for someone to look up to who looked like me,” she recalls – and where once, she put her energy into playing a character instead, in being herself beabadoobee has become that figure for a younger generation, too. She’s also ready to collaborate with more Asian musicians moving forward. FYI: You can find the booklet-style DIY 🍄 Beabadoobee 🦋 zine here (which includes a full Q&A transcript from our CDM x Beabadoobee Zine #52 cover story).

CDM: If you wanted a dream interpretation of your lyrics in '10:36' ("Saw you in a dream last night / You looked like a ghost")... apparently if you see someone you know in a dream and they look like a ghost, it means that you feel like you have unfinished business with them. BEABADOOBEE: I probably relate to that. It's so weird because all my dreams just kind of erase from my memory within 10 minutes, but in general, like in life, I feel like I'm always trying to find a home. And now that I've got a home, it's great, but I feel like I'm always trying to find a home and I wouldn't be surprised if my dreams are like that too.Following her expulsion, beabadoobee experienced depression, and it was then that her father bought a guitar to cheer her up. Her first guitar was a second-hand acoustic which she taught herself to play by following YouTube tutorials. Playing guitar became a therapeutic comfort to her, and shortly thereafter she decided to start uploading the music she was recording in her bedroom under the silly play on her name, carelessly chosen because she had never really expected anyone to pay attention to her songs; she was just putting them online for her friends to hear. Music was never the plan; her childhood career ambitions included being a nun, a surgeon, or a primary school teacher (the latter she is serious about, and says she hopes to pursue in the future – perhaps to make up for her own school experiences). CDM: I'm so proud of you for co-producing 'Beatopia' with Jacob! Are you excited to dabble more with production?

BEABADOOBEE: I don't know why my head goes straight to romantic relationships with this question, but I could probably only answer it with this: I think it's just having two people actually wanting to communicate with each other. Two people have to want to talk to each other. It can't just be a one-sided thing. That's the hardest part. BEABADOOBEE: I was going through a lot of things during that... and that was kind of like the icing on the cake of feeling alienated, or just very out of place. It was almost an out-of-body experience, I didn't feel like myself at all, and I don't think seven-year-olds should ever have to feel that way as a normal feeling. BEABADOOBEE: A little bit overwhelming, but while I was writing the record, I realised that the whole idea behind Beatopia was just a way for me to escape a lot of things that were happening at the time. So it was a sad thing I had to think about, but it was also really empowering, trying to uncover a lot of the feelings I had long repressed - like, very repressed feelings. I just had to face them, write about them, and get over them, and then it made me grow as a person. BEABADOOBEE: 1000% it's albums and songs like The Cure and The Smiths - I can't help but think about my girlfriends when I listen to them. And OPM; old Filipino music like APO Hiking Society - I think about my family in the Philippines and I think about the move and I think about visiting Iloilo every year when I was a kid. I listened to a lot of Norah Jones through my breakup, so every time I'm listening to Norah Jones now, it's like: 'Wow, I'm on my shit.' CDM: You've told me previously that you really want to be a nursery school teacher, which is interesting in the context of what we just spoke about, as story-based learning is majorly important for children.BEABADOOBEE: At times, it's quite scary to face the truth. And for me, especially, I'm conditioned to just not face problems when they come to me and push them under the rug for so long. I mean, i.e. Beatopia. It's really hard because it's something that I just don't want to be my problem until it becomes a really big problem, if that makes sense? BEABADOOBEE: Totally. It's weird doing up my house and thinking about it like it feels normal. I live in my own house! I cannot believe I own a house! I'm like: 'Oh, I am cleaning MY kitchen!' That just sounds so stupid, but from living in my parent's house to never living on my own even once at all to suddenly living in my own place, is a massive jump for me. CDM: How much of dreams do you think are messages from our unconscious self to our conscious selves? Beabadoobee can pinpoint the moments in her life that have proved pivotal; the events that represent a fork in the road, from which turning one way or the other might have led her on different, perhaps darker paths. One such turn might represent her “villain origin story”, as she, the comic book fan, puts it. CDM: There's a lot of emphasis placed on how we think about ourselves in relation to other people and how we communicate with others, but it can be really hard to be deeply honest with yourself and be self-aware. Why is the hardest person to communicate with sometimes your own self?

BEABADOOBEE: It's been hard at times. I actually haven't been alone at my house at all. If it's not my friends, it's my boyfriend, or my dad is there. And I really appreciate the people around me constantly helping me. I do feel a sort of independence, but it's an independence where I'm confident enough to let people help me instead of just pushing them away, because that was definitely a problem for me. BEABADOOBEE: I guess it's one of the most important things humans create. Memories are really lovely and really nostalgic, but I think it's important to make memories, instead of just dwelling in memories because I do find myself getting lost in them instead of focusing on the now and the future. Selected items are only available for delivery via the Royal Mail 48® service and other items are available for delivery using this service for a charge. CDM: In 'Beatopia Cult Song' you say: "Is it me or recently time is moving slowly." Do you still feel like time is moving slow? BEABADOOBEE: Totally. To speak about it very plainly, I think it was way more visual when I was seven. Now, it's like a feeling. Just something that I had within myself that I had to take a little bit of time to dig up and find again

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CDM: I love that you've been super outspoken about not only representation, but also about public conversations to encourage and inspire younger girls to become musicians. Why is that so important to you? CDM: So, the flipside of narratives is that when we write these stories for ourselves, sometimes we have a tendency to cling tightly onto them to reinforce the ideas we have of ourselves - like how some people always paint themselves as a victim. Do you think it's important to sometimes look outside of your narratives you've written for yourself and break free from them? BEABADOOBEE: Totally, and that's how I got into music for the first time. When I was younger and creating 'Beatopia', I wrote a lot of stories and a lot of poetry, and I think that's the best way that I like to learn. That's how my mum taught me a lot of things and I learn a lot from my own experiences in life. So I feel like it's worked out for me, and then if I sing songs about my life and tell stories, I think it makes everything more relatable to everyone.

CDM: I read once that it can be good for you to have an experience where only your reality exists because it's life-affirming to be able to have that control. Is that how you feel about Beatopia? CDM: Narrative theory is based on the concept that storytelling is an important part of human culture, and that humans can share with each other their knowledge of experience through teachable moments in stories. Basically, that we can all learn together from each other's stories. I feel like narrative is a big part of the Beabadoobee world, and you've shared so many stories in song-form. Is there anything from your 'Beatopia' song-stories that you would like people to learn or take away? True wisdom (the kind that usually has to be learnt the hard way, alas) is knowing when to draw strong emotional boundaries around yourself to keep you safe, and Kristi has survived it all - the bad ( "You don't need me, as much as I need you"), the good ( "I see my reflection so much clearer"), and everything in between ( "It’s easy if I pretend") - within the warm embrace that is 'Beatopia'. Homing in on the hard-won knowledge that the universe usually delivers with good reason, Kristi nestles up in her safe space, inviting listeners to share in portentous dreams about unfinished business (take heed of anyone that looks like a ghost in a dream), feeling at odds with other people but knowing that you've got to put yourself first, and being self-aware enough to want to remove yourself from toxic situations (which is usually easier said than done). BEABADOOBEE: I'm still definitely on the road to self-acceptance, but I definitely appreciate my existence more than like two years ago. BEABADOOBEE: Beatopia is a made-up world by a girl called Bea and it is crazy and smells like pancakes and mushrooms.

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BEABADOOBEE: A lot of things make me feel optimistic about the future, like feeling super secure. Right now, I'm just feeling the happiest I've ever felt in a really, really long time. And being able to do music and travel and having my own home. And a cat. I'm gonna get a cat: Mr. Fluffykins. I really want a Maine Coon. There was a moment when she was seven years-old that feels exactly like that. She tells me about an imaginary world that, as an unhappy child, she dreamed up to escape reality. Beatopia was a deeply intricate universe, with an alphabet, countries, cities: she made a poster which detailed this place in all its splendour. But one day in school, she returned to class after a violin lesson, and found her classmates laughing. They had found the poster; their teacher, meanwhile, did little to stop their ridicule, and even joined in. BEABADOOBEE: Not really... I guess I write a lot of music now, so I think it's just replaced that. And my poetry when I was younger was just so straightforward. With the return of Beabadoobee to the cover of Coup De Main, we're excited to announce a limited-edition DIY zine featuring our brand new CDM x Beabadoobee cover-story...