In an exclusive chat with Digital Spy, Foster reveals the one hour and 45 minute documentary barely scratches the surface of what he experienced in the presence of McAfee. As a ghostwriter, Foster's work involved him writing as McAfee – and as a man who takes his work seriously, this involved months of interviews and time with him to write his point of view. In exchange, McAfee had to give Foster a no-holds-barred insight into his life. Alone on the beach, a professionally dressed man walked up to Alex, drawing a knife and demanding him to remove his pants. Alex barely got away, stabbing the man and leaving him for dead in the process.

The accusation and the details surrounding the rape are not mentioned in the documentary as production was not able to find enough evidence to substantiate the accusation, but provided a turning point for Foster, who then had to fly to Barcelona for another session with McAfee. Despite being aware of previous accusations, this time felt different – with a direct line to those involved, forcing it from the periphery of 'something that might have happened' to something that, in Foster's opinion at least, almost certainly did.

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It wasn’t until Alex Cody Foster became the unsuspecting ghost writer for John that he grew to learn how similar the two really were. Fortunately and more importantly, after 6 months of working for John, Alex was also able to discern where their similarities ended and stark differences began. My writing career began when I was twenty years old. I was in a cafe, painstakingly engaged in the 22nd edit of my first book — a memoir of my travels hitchhiking across country, being homeless in Los Angeles, living with one of America's wealthiest people, and sailing the Inside Passage to Alaska. Beside me, a woman asked if I was writing a memoir. In one chilling moment on one of Foster's tapes, McAfee seemingly alludes to the idea he murdered his abusive father at the age of 17, getting away with the killing for decades, seemingly without consequence. John, a computer programmer saw life as purely rational. He said though he loved his wife dearly, he would never die for her nor anyone else. He said one would be stupid for dying for another, because in the end we are all, every single one of us, inherently selfish beings. When Alex finally started putting thoughts into words and words into ink did he begin to find himself. The freedom to express, create, and escape opened up a whole new world to him as a boy reading books in the library during lunch break. Through writing did he begin to exercise the innate freedom within. The freedom to create your own stories, characters, good guys and bad. The freedom to find reprieve from the never-ending hamster wheel of life, realizing the necessity of death, because without it, there would be no sacredness to life.

The stuff about McAfee is better, though essentially just a series of transcriptions of boozy convos with an increasingly unhinged McAfee.A year later, Janice is still campaigning for the release of McAfee's body and the autopsy report from Spanish authorities, so she can conduct her own private investigation. This was his tipping point. He had seen evil and experienced forms of cruelty, but never before had he been so close to death himself and so close to killing another. Alex, inspired by the story of the power of love by one of the homeless men he interviewed, began spreading love within the homeless community. He bought Honey Buns and gave them out for free. He gave money to the homeless, all the while being homeless himself. Much like John throughout his life, Alex started his life as a young adult on the move. On the run, not quite knowing if it were motivated by moving toward something better, or away from something worse. In this debut memoir, a ghostwriter steps out from behind the scenes to paint a portrait of his larger-than-life subject.