I waited for these two to light my kindle on fire between the intense chemistry and angst. My kindle may have been on fire a time or two. Okay, maybe several times. My review is going to be kinda all over the place but I absolutely LOVED and enjoyed For the Fans! Safe to say it's my favourite book by Nyla K to date!

Their story is full of steamy moments, but also ones that are very emotionally heartfelt. Kyran on first impression is a jerk, but he is not what he appears and my heart broke as I got to fully understand him. Avi on the other hand is such a sweetheart, someone who has such a big heart and only wants what's best for those he cares about, which includes Kyran. The dirty talk!! I loved it so much! I also loved how Kyran NEEDED Avi to praise him and shower him with compliments. I know it comes from feelings of inadequacy and due to his past, but he came alive whenever Avi was there to feed his praise kink. Also the pet names~ I loved it! The main characters, Avi and Kyran made me fell all sorts of emotions, I was laughing, swooning, crying, smiling, blushing and a lot more. The way they hated each other and at the same time they were really possessive (which I freaking love, it’s the hottest thing ever) made me love them even more. I was basically melting during their cute and cozy moments. It's a long journey for them to be like this, but trust me, it's so worth it. The chemistry between them was off the charts, I can’t even describe it in words. They were both so hot and crazy, or more like obsessed, with each other that once they started, they couldn't keep their hands off each other. The intimate scenes were amazing, and you will be surprised who is the more dominant one here. The jealousy and "You are mine and only mine" moments were probably my favorite, because well, they always are. Authors, if you are a member of the Goodreads Author Program, you can edit information about your own books. Find out how in this guide.There’s more swoon, and a different type of angst that I haven’t found in Nyla’s previous books - hearts breaking because there are so many obstacles in the way to them being together, both external and internal. But it makes the HEA so very worthwhile, and the book impossible to put down. And despite them being stepbrothers, it doesn’t feel hugely taboo with the way the plot runs. Hell, even the dabbling in “online intimate content creation” feels kinda innocuous. Kinda… I’m still thinking about it while writing this review, because both became so alive in my head, it’s like I know them for real.

My only issues would be the MFM scene. Not a fan of MMF/MFM at all. However, it was brief and it can be skipped if it makes you uncomfortable as wellI love virtually everything else about independent publishing – but my case for mean editors is as follows: As always, I’m writing my review directly after finishing a book, and I confess I’m still a bit overwhelmed. Overall thoughts: Way too long, the GFY aspect is tired and overused in “gay romance,” the OnlyFans plot was shaky, miscommunication trope yawn, and the sex scenes were ridiculously filthy HOT and intimate. I loved their love so much and wished the story began at college. Aviel Vega is probably one of my favorite characters ever written. That dude is so extremely funny. I was automatically dying at anything he said. I’ve never highlighted more things in a book, and a majority of them were from him. I loved that dude. There was never a time I was annoyed at him. Now Kyran on the other hand? I could’ve throat punched that man plenty of times. Dude got on every nerve I had. I did end up liking him as the book went on, and I started to feel for him after I knew what was going on, but beginning of the book Kyran? Hated that man. He was so mean to my darling angel pants Avi. I’m not the kind of guy that’s into the whole concept of gay-for-pay so you can predict my opinion on the whole motive of this book. I think queer identities are taken lightly bcs of this.

The hurt-comfort trope was also really strong here, especially since one of the main characters has a deeply traumatic history, which I will not reveal, but it was devastating, and his character had so many layers. His trauma truly felt like it was part of him from beginning to end and it was just beautiful as well as heartbreaking. His character was truly so well developed, and it once again showed the depth this story was able to portray. I was so happy that he got someone who was there for him unconditionally. These two were honestly so dependant on each other and they truly became each other’s world. They were each other’s comfort and one remaining light in the darkness. And that’s when one of Avi’s friends comes up with the OnlyFans idea. Avi starts alone, but is soon joined by a very reluctant Kyran. For the money ofc. And for the fans. Because both are straight, and definitely NOT into each other. Kyran and Avi were at each other throats from day one! While Avi tried to make peace and accept his stepbrother, Kyran felt as if he had been replaced, left behind by his mother and sister to a father who does not truly see him…ugh, my heart. He is all needles and hate because of all the hurt he carries. Thus they genuinely become enemies! Constant conflict with one another for years. Nyla did a great job at writing a true enemies-to-lovers story! Some of the plot twists and turns overrode character development – and that would be fine if it was a plot driven story, but it really wasn’t. The characters drove the plot and often made decisions that were incongruent with their growth and understanding.I tend to choose projects based on their originality, meaning that I like for all my books to greatly vary from each other. That said, I am currently writing another MMF in the Alabaster Pen series. It is Book 2 following Distorted and it is a standalone, though I advise reading Distorted first to really get the gist of what's happening. This MMF, called Joyless, will be quite different from PUSH, but I think PUSH fans will really like it. It's dark and dirty and full of secrets and reveals. All that said, I really did like the characters and can see why people had such strong emotional attachments to them and the story. Aside from the pop culture references, they acted their age and were believable. The relationship starts intensely toxic and progresses at a decent pace despite the heft of the book and makes you want to root for the characters. The book really took Avi and Kyran on an emotional journey and I wanted the best for them – BUT I also wanted to see an epilogue so far in the future there’s no more water left on Earth to make me feel like these 20-year-old babies actually made it out the other side of all of this. All that said, I really did like the characters and can see why people had such strong emotional attachments to them and the story. Aside from the pop culture references, they acted their age and were believable. The relationship starts intensely toxic and progresses at a decent pace despite the heft of the book and makes you want to root for the characters. The book really took Avi and Kyran on an emotional journey and I wanted the be